with pharmaco CA coming up,
i thought this birthday would be spent studying only.
not tt i din expect any celebrations,
but i thought they'd come after the CA..
so i must say i was pleasantly surprised with the two surprises :)
and of course the presents tt i'm so happily pleased with :)

thank you to all of u who have made my birthday so special.
uall have really really warmed my heart much :)

and i can't believe i'm so gullible as to fall for the exact same trick that my parents used twice....
and cos of tt, ms tai called me blur :(
but tt's also cos she's happy tt she's not the only blur one ard, for a change :)
and now back to mugging everyone :) haha

oh yes, suddenly remembered why i decided to write this post...
after 21 years of my life lamenting that i haven't found anyone with the same birthday as me yet..
i finally found one this year..
and despite the fact tt i'd like to celebrate having found someone...
this person is not the most ideal tt i'd love to share a birthday with so..hmm...haha..
i sure hope she doesn't chance onto my blog!!! *keeps fingers crossed*

note: photos are NOT placed in chronological order...(other than the sequences of the phs photos...hahaha)

phs goodie bag packing

phs goodie bag stacking

lovely phs comm..oops..missing some ppl..obviously not the correct photo to upload..but heck la..haha.

i think this was the idiot who locked me in between two trolleys.
post-phs - all of us went a bit mad.
we even did bumper-trolley..siao..

post-cable ski dinner.

cable-ski --> girls slacking aft lunch when guys jumped straight back to cable skiing.
the other group photo is censured. haha. for personal viewing only. heh.

boss's birthday, one day before phs goodie bag packing and we stayed out for supper until like 5..

timbre with councillors. obviously wrong photo again cos lil and i not looking at camera..but too lazy to find the correct one.
guest appearance - teck tee!!! (though not portrayed in this photo!)

my blog's dead.
like my life.
so boring.
no excitement other than setting plugs, taking bloods, and learning all about trauma management etc.
so as u can prob guess by now, i'm doing my emed posting.

ended my slack fam med posting.
really miss it..
miss the coolness of having a slack posting.
miss the coolness of everyone chilling cos the posting is way to easy and slack.

but thankfully emed's treating me not bad too.
not bad in the sense tt the stuff are exciting to watch and learn,
but damn bloody tiring!! haha.
like we just did night call last night.
din sleep at all the whole night.
a surprise i could still drive today.

and then still can go celebrate dad's birthday. :)
ate at the tien gourt again (where we celebrated mum's birthday)
food's quite good as usual.
but eat until i want to burst agian...
and went to west coast plaza (yet again..i think i've been there like just short of 10 times since it opened less than 1 month ago..)
and finally explored the pharmacy there!
so excited and happy to find generic paracetamol which cost me 3 bucks for 100 tablets...
YAY to the end of expensive panadol..hahaha.
and then also bought famotidine..cos the bismag tt i finally found will cost me 13 bucks as opposed to 96 cents for the famotidine..so decided tt i should give famotidine a shot :)

really miss you a lot!
miss having you follow us around wherever we go,
miss having you cuddle up in my lap,
miss having you sleeping on my bed,
miss having you purposely turning over asking for a tummy rub.

i think i'm a very complicated person.
sometimes i wish for one thing,
but other times i wish for something tt is totally opposite of the first thing.
and i think i'm not making sense
but it's good.
cos i dun want anyone to make sense of what i just said.

anyway, i was just thinking a while back..
tt it's easier to say hi to an acquaintance..
then try to maintain a good relationship with someone whom you are supposed to be close to but friction arises cos you see each other abt 24/7 each day.
oh wells,
this was sparked off by some events i faced tt day,
when i realised tt it was actually easier for me to smile and say hi to an acquaintance,
than smile to the latter.

and i'm always in awe when i see how close wen shan and furene are through all these years.
hope i'll be able to achieve this :S
and i really ought to go back to studying.
NEED TO BE MORE FOCUSED FOR EOPT.
WHICH I THINK I'M GOING TO FLUNK ALR.

and so phs is finally over!
through a very tiring and sleep-deprived weekend,
which caused me to end up with sore and throbbing feet even up to now (more than 24h since the event has ended!), a hoarse voice with a mild sore throat to go with it and still feeling sleep-deprived-yet-having-to-finish-the-case-writeup-that-we-promised-dr-leslie.

but i must say my job was the most gratifying.
it made me really glad that we had decided to move to IMM for reasons as such:
1) we are totally screening a different group of people, fulfilling our aim to move away from toa payoh.
2) this group of people mention that they've never had health screenings like that in this region, and hence many are appreciative of our work here (i'm beginning to think tt the ppl in toa payoh are taking us for granted hahahaha)
3) my job is probably one of the few that allowed me to talk cok quite a lot with the participants, which was really really fun and interesting (most other stations just deal with the readings and that's it, only consultation prob will get to talk to them quite a bit)!
4) of course, my job also allows me to see a variety of kids whom i could play with :)

but at the same time my job was the most tiring.
like i told quite a few ppl,
the least tiring job in phs would be the consultation/questionnaire/BP/CBG ppl since they get to sit down and do their job, esp the BP and CBG ppl who apparently dun get to talk to the patients much (consultation and questionnaire ppl at least get to become very thirsty)
then the next in line would be the ushers/queue managers who haf to stand the whole day directing the crowd in the right flow of the event/to the event in the first place, and these ppl prob haf to speak..but maybe not a lot. haha.
but the ultimate is still yee keow and my job,
we haf to talk (cos of survey), we haf to stand (cos the flow usu is just too good for us to have time to sit down and rest, esp on sun), and worst of all, we haf to carry stuff - goody bags/apples/vouchers.

and below is the link to the media coverage of the event on which i appeared for quite long :)
thankfully i wasn't caught slacking! haha
and kai liang looked/sounded so nervous!
he said a total of 4 times "jiu shi"!!! haha.
http://www.cnachinese.com/stories/singapore/view/65110/1/gb/.html

and now that phs is over,
i haf to start studying for medicine EOPT alr..
screwed for it alr.. -gulps-
but before that..
i need to finish case writeup tonight.
bleh.
stuck at management now, but feeling super sleepy...

it's my first year watching F1,

and like i've explained to a few ppl,
i started cos my bro wanted to watch it one sun,
and that happened to be the Monaco race.
and having been to Monaco on the night of the race day two years ago,
i was pretty excited and for once agreed to allow my brother to watch (haha, if not an argument was sure to ensue among the three of us regarding what to watch over dinner)
prior to this i always thought F1 was pretty stupid since the drivers just make rounds after rounds around the same track (i mean like 50+ 60 laps?? come on!!!)
and it still is quite stupid to haf to go around so many laps and sometimes even boring..
but at least now i noe the ppl..
and at least i noe two different tracks hee hee.

and that particular Monaco race proved to be quite exciting,
contrary to what ppl expect (what with it being difficult to overtake etc etc)
though i can't exactly remember right now what exactly happened. haha.

and the next F1 race i watched was the one that Hamilton was caught up in the appeal when he was made to drop from 1st place to 3rd (i haf NO IDEA where in the world tt F1 was held! haha)
i didn't watch that whole match cos we were out celebrating my mum's birthday,
but we caught the last part..
which also proved to be the exciting part..
cos it was the part that hamilton bumped raikkonen off and caused raikkonen to spin off-course and out of the race.

and the third F1 race i watched was none other than the first ever night race in F1,
first ever street course in Asia,
none other than the Singapore F1!!!

but this F1 proved to be really disappointing for me.
without a doubt,
there was more action than anyone could have thought would have happened in singapore..
what with all the drivers exclaiming that it's difficult to overtake ppl in the race course.
there were a couple of good overtakes in the race, thankfully, disquelling the common belief.

i guess for ppl who have never ever followed the F1 scene,
the only inkling they'd ever haf of the F1 scene is that the Ferrari is the best..
and if anyone who starts following the F1 scene would most undoubtedly be rooting for Ferrari.
Hence i am not an exception as well. heehee.
which is y this race is so disappointing.
i can't believe that Massa lost out in this race all because the Ferrari team made a mistake by not ensuring that the fuel hose was pulled out before changing the lights.
and i can't believe that Massa continued screwing up in the race all because he lost all motivation by that mistake.
sigh.
and just when i thought at least the other Ferrari looked like it was going to score some points for the team,
at about the 5th (?) last lap, Raikkonen crashed,
dashing all hopes of Ferrari gaining any points in the Singapore Grand Prix.
sigh sigh sigh.

and now the worst part is that cos of Hamilton's 3rd position,
Mclaren is 1 point ahead of Ferrari from a 5 point lead!
now i can only pray that the Fuji Grand Prix can help fix things back!

anyway now for the lighter part..
it's quite amazing how i cannot really recognise the road(s) that the racetrack in singapore uses..
i mean i can recognise the area definitely,
like the padang, the esplanade, the floating platform, the parliament house..
but i can't seem to recall having ever driven on those roads..
maybe i really haven't.
haha.
but i've definitely walked by foot along the road next to padang..
yet, the slight arrangements made to the road for the race has totally rendered it non-recognisable for me.. :S gulps.
and i definitely didn't even notice the light works going on there!
mental note to self: the next time i go past there, i must go and have a good look at the lights and place man.. haha.
and actually yest i wanted to go down to somewhere nearby (like esplanade) during the qualifying to like soak in the atmosphere..
but after giving out the flyers, i was so tired and was so scared of the crowd that i chickened out last min..
hopefully will get to do it nxt yr lor..though it's my sis's A levels year..
then the year aft tt is my final MBBS year..
oh well..
at least the F1 is here to stay for at least 4 more years..
so i should still haf 2 more years to have a chance to go soak in the atmosphere! :)

Shihui is moderately outgoing. quite true i think Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Shihui will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. this is very true, especially in the context of clinicals!! She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Shihui an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Shihui is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Shihui is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. and omg, this cannot be any truer! i always find myself being able to see the reason behind both sides of the story and hence not being able to decide until i m finally FORCED to make a decision! She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Shihui doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Shihui is sensitive to criticism about her ideas and philosophies. my sister says this is true..but i'm not too sure...i'd think sensitive to criticisms about herself and her i dunno, skills? but ideas and philosophies..hmm..tt's a new one..She will sometimes worry what people will think if she tells them what she believes in. This doesn't mean she won't talk, or that she feels ashamed. It merely means she is sensitive to what others think, regarding her beliefs.

Shihui will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it! prob used to be truer last time..but now maybe not so much alr..sigh..the "wonders" of having to be tactful and diplomatic in the real world!

In reference to Shihui's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. To think i was actually just complaining that i'm biting off more than i can chew!! Amazing! but i'm not so sure about the creative part..would be happy if tt were true. haha. When Shihui slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Shihui can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip. prob true in a way, like how i really need the longer time before exams to slowly assimilate all my info and this is the time i learn even better by compartmentalising my knowledge, as compared to just picking up info from lecturers.

Shihui's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Shihui that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. hmm, this sounds way too familiar. i sure hope that this is a trait of the past..but i'm thinking not..Shihui also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. i dun really agree with this too. i mean i think i'm the kind who can't risk failure, but i would resist setting my goals too high because of that..in fact, i set my goals pretty damn highly. :S She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Shihui is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Shihui's self-concept is artificially low. Shihui will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Shihui to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Shihui is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Shihui has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her. O M G. u should noe this one if u are truly close to me.

Shihui has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Shihui has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Shihui fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Shihui has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. oops! i sure hope this is not really true/that extreme a trait in me!!! I would be surprised if Shihui just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Shihui finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

so, good and bad again, as with us all mortal beings. i really really like all these personality things..it gives me a good chance to really reflect on who i think i m since i'll compare it with what a set test, which can be both reliable (like those created by i dunno, psychologists and in this case i presume a good graphologist..haha) and maybe not so reliable (just random test found online that no one can identify the sources) seems to tell me that i am based on certain choices i make. of course, i still feel that the value of these tests lie in whether others view it as the same way i feel it, cos then it gives me a feel of how OTHERS see me (which is probably a more accurate description of how i really am as compared to what i think i am since i hardly reflect on what kind of person i m..hahaha). however, this last option doesn't really come by often, which is y i was quite glad i had input on some parts of the analysis from my sister :)

i am a person who doesn't like conflicts.
should conflicts arise,
my reflex mechanism is to run away from the problems,
and then not think about it.
that's y i never knew y conflicts arise.
and i just know that i dun like conflicts.

but having so much more time recently (ironically considering we are supposed to be studying for patho - recall my theory about having more time when we are studying for exams)
i think i finally figured sth out.
even if it's not always the case,
this is definitely the situation i m facing now.

conflicts arise cos there are differences in expectations among different people, especially when the expectations are directed towards similar work/chores or even morals.
and more often than not, we do not voice out our expectations willingly - i mean, it would be quite weird to do so out of the blue right? haha
and in the hectic lives of ours,
we just can't afford the time to sit down and thrash things out,
and then there's the snowball phenomenon,
where all the probs just add up into sth bigger.

so now that i've understood (at least partially) how conflicts arise,
i should embark on my lifelong journey to experiment and find out how to deal with them.
sigh.